So here I am writing about how I want to quit writing. This whole novel thing reminds me of being obsessed with a girl that treats you like crap. I don't want to be the teen-aged version of myself who is holding on to a girl that I've made into an ideal. I remember thinking things like: "If I stick around long enough, she'll see what it is that makes me so perfect for her." Meanwhile, all my friend are thinking (not saying, mind you) that I'm crazy and I need to (if I may borrow the words of Garth Algar) "get over it and go out with somebody else."
Basically, I cannot stop wondering if I should just dump my first novel and go out with someone else? I mean it is my first novel. It can't be that great--chances are it mediocre at best. It's a first. Firsts are always a little awkward. Maybe I should move on for a while and come back on her when I've got some real perspective. Like many past girlfriends, with enough time, a girl I once idolized can become an embarrassing blemish on my dating record.
But it really hard to stop thinking that if I had just one more chance, just one more run, it could all work out.........
A thought, if I may. If you write something different (genre-wise or simply content-wise), that's a wider range of experience to look back with.
ReplyDeleteYou wrote a novel, though, and no one can take that away no matter how far you do or don't go with it!
I would like to write some fiction that isn't literary, but it's scary to move out of my comfort zone. But I guess that's the point.
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